This Little Light of Mine

Day 80…

Yesterday was the sixth day of Nano…and I stumbled.  I had been doing so well, actually excited about what I was writing…and wham…that old doubt bubbles up.  Not when I was walking, not when I was reading, not when I was babysitting Melissa’s little boys.  Nope.  Just everytime I opened Microsoft Word to my book, Bella.

I didn’t want to go there.   My characters were taking over.  I couldn’t keep up with them.  More and more personalities wanted to be in the story.  And wanted to tell me where they belonged in the story.  I’d lost control. Flashback to a really bad day of teaching.  I was about to chuck the whole thing.  This is stupid.  Who do I think I am writing a book? 

Then I remembered the quote by Marianne Williamson, after I took another walk.  Surely it’s not my light I’m scared of.  Well, maybe so.  Maybe I’m a little too comfortable in the shadows. Step out there Laura.  Get back to that rowdy group that’s demanding your attention.  Give it to them.  You’ve calmed more chaotic personalities than these, around you and within.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”   Marianne Williamson

Writing topic: Writing in the Light

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